You know when you’re IMing or texting someone.. or even when you think of them saying something to you.. How you can envision them saying that to you. How you read it in their voice. Or how you can envision what their lips move like when they say certain words. It’s crazy what humans are capable of noticing about someone. How when you miss someone, your mind can vividly give you mental images of this person, feel their presence, think of them saying your name to you. It can be a very painful going to these depths of your mind. You can find yourself full of regret, or want.
Sometimes when I think of you like that, I can’t help but cry. It pulls on my heart strings, crushes me from within, and makes me feel terrible. Love is a painful thing. I haven’t heard your voice in months, seen your face in person in months, and you still haunt my thoughts, memories, and dreams. I can’t listen to certain songs, cause I think of you. (Intro by The XX being one that I hear all the time that I can’t listen to more than 30 seconds of). I want you back in my life but I know that won’t happen.
Some people don’t know what love is. They really don’t. It’s annoying. You think you miss someone, but you probably just miss the feelings they gave you.
Love isn’t for you. Love is for the person you love. You want to give all your love to them, and you want them to have this love even when it’s over. You’ll feel empty, emotionally drained, hollow. You’ll feel a resonating emptiness inside you that won’t leave.
It’s been 8 months and it hasn’t left.